I usually make it a point to read the journals of people I watch, or at least those I have some sense of relationship past "watcher and watchee" with, but...I'm sorry. 105 journals is too much for me to handle. I'm on the brink of taking my boyfriend's advice and deleting my now-1200-strong queue of deviations to look at. I really, seriously, do NOT want to have to do that, but...if I don't get the virus thing resolved anytime soon, I might have to.

So what's been up with me? Not much in particular, actually. The virus is annoying the crap out of me, I've still been drawing daily, I'm considering digging out a blank notebook (I have an addiction to blank notebooks...defiling that first page is scary, cause you don't know if you're doing it wrong, but wholly magical) and starting a daily writing journal, like when I had Freshman Writing Seminar last year. We had to write on a topic daily. I won't, sadly, have anyone telling me what to write, though. My indecisiveness will love that.

Emotionally, I don't know. I think I've always been an unstable, imbalanced soul, as I have been easily moved by anything all my life...it's just bothering me even more now. I think I may have gotten that much more sensitive.

In terms of Photoshop and Flash classes, I'm staring at yet another finished project. We were supposed to take a picture of our selves and make it appear as though we were stuck within a screen (a computer screen, TV screen, etc.). I’d love to show it, though it’s not much editing done, but I’m not really quite comfortable with the notion of putting my picture up on the internet. Sadly, thanks to that, there are a few projects that won’t be seen for a while from this quarter. Flash-wise, though, I’m finishing up my fourth animation, which includes an original character I designed. It’s kind of weird, but I like what the character design is like, at least. I really need to post up my animations...Hmm. Also, I’m still obsessed with those earth portal things. I just made one and somehow figured out how to, in the place of a color balance adjustment layer, overlay a gradient onto my latest one. It’s a little plain, and the angle might look better if NOT horizontal, but I have to admit, what I made looks pretty darn cool. I might make a quad of four rainbow/gradient ones now. I also just made a super awesome effect by, before adding a wave to my thing, going from rectangular to polar in polar coordinates, adding some wind, and going back from polar to rectangular. (Sorry if the PS lingo is completely confusing; this is partially so I’ll remember what I’ve done. And if you do get it, then great! )

School other than Flash and Photoshop is...eh, school. Last week, I took my AP Chemistry exam—the cumulative exam of an AP course that’s all standardized and can possibly count for college credit or something. It was scary, and I’m certain I didn’t do quite excellently, but it’s over...also, my guidance counselor came to me earlier this period and informed me I have to scuttle over to his office for course issues for next year. An elective I chose isn’t being done...(and also, unless I’m blind, I don’t have a history course next year o_O And that’s not supposed to be so.)

I seriously, seriously, seriously miss being on deviantART. My days are getting less and less sweet knowing that I’m being cut off from people I know. Not to mention, I’m finding that my Internet is increasingly buggy. I’m not getting popups like mad anymore, but my internet is crashing, my C++ is going haywire and momentarily making my taskbar disappear (and sometimes that happens for prolonged periods of time, meaning I have to restart my computer). I’m starting to try and figure out how I’m going to go about telling my parents something is wrong with my computer. I’m nervous about it, because I know I’ll definitely get shit for going to websites, and they’ll probably blame deviantART and ban me from going there (even though I know for a fact dA is innocent) or something, and I’ll probably have to pay for whatever we end up doing with the computer, which sucks because as of yet I still don’t have any sort of job. I need to get my working papers processed...

Eh. I’m running out of things to talk about. If I can get these computers to cooperate, I will try to post something. Other than that...I hope all of you are doing well!